I hear you.
Im with you every time you shed that one tear that isn't suppose to fall. I am there with you when all you want to do is run at the speed of light to that imaginary place where everything is perfect. I know what it's like to feel your heart ponder on whether to keep pumping blood to the rest of your body. They say death is a physiological cause, but you and I know that sadness is capable of everything, especially death. Has the world forgotten about Romeo and Juliet? Has the world forgotten about my great-grandma? Yeah my great-grandma. She died months after her beloved life partner had passed away. Is that an originated physiology problem too world?! Sadness. We know it's real huh? And you know what world?! You're really unfair!
I wonder what He said to you, or maybe it's what he didn't say, that stole that beautiful smile that used to make people stare. I wish i could read your sad eyes to find that one memory that makes all the air inside your body leave. What was that one memory that numbs all your senses, until all you can feel is pain? what's your story?
Broken girl, let me tell you that He was the wrong person. Let me tell you that there was nothing you could have done. Please get it in your head: wrong time, place and.... Person.
I know this doesn't make things simpler because I feel the same. I know your mind understands, but your heart is still beating without understand why. Just let it be sufficient when I say, "Not Now". Just bottle all it all up, and whatever you do, don't open that pressured tramped carbon dioxide until its all settle down. Wait until that drink is flat and undrinkable so that you won't want Him ever again. Only then are you allowed to open Pandoras box.
So what do we do while we wait for peace? Happiness.
Remember your favorite dessert? Or your favorite movie? What about that one friend that makes you laugh?
In mist of all the sadness of the world, I say make your own happiness!! I know the dark is all consuming, but heartache is a persistent guest we ALLOW in. Its so persistent not inviting it in, is almost like defying gravity. But i say defy gravity! Dance in the rain, sing in the mall, go shopping, get a pet. Because, really, in whose hands do you think your happiness is in? Be happy! Because happiness can only be achieved by you. You only know what YOU know. So in conclusion, get to know happiness.
From, Someone Just Like you